Stressed Out

I can't believe it is already March! I will be leaving for India in two weeks, and I am getting freaked out. There is so much to do before I leave, and I am not mentally prepared yet.

I hope to get a lot done this week. Maybe I will feel better on Monday, or maybe I will be even more nervous. Once I have everything together I think I will feel better.

I have been a procrastinator and not sent in my Visa application yet, and now I am totally stressed out about it. Why did I wait to long?! It takes less than a week to get done, but if I am leaving in 2 weeks, why did I wait until today? I feel very dumb for putting myself in this situation.

I think the part of me that doesn't want to go to a third world country by myself ignored the situation thinking that I had plenty of time. Now that I look at the calendar I see I was fooling myself.

I am excited about the opportunity, but as the date approaches I get more nervous, and the scarred feelings are currently outweighing the excited feelings. I know there is no use in worrying, in fact in only hurts the situation, but nevertheless I am fighting worry. Makes no sense, and I know it.

Ready or not, India here I come.